So I’ve had a roller coaster of a week, since my arrival back home from Fort McMurray, Alberta. There have been more ups than downs.
For one, I have been able to spend time with my best buddy Jeremy, something I haven’t really had a chance at doing well before my birthday back in January. He went to Saskachewan just before I came home to visit from Ryerson. there are few things I missed about Belle River and moving away but he was definately one of them.
I also got to spend some time with another friend Jen! She works at A&W when she has to, but I’m excited for her because she’s in university to become a nurse! She’s a lucky one, she’ll start in the medical field before I even enter Med school. I’ve seen her a few times this year previous and we’ve caught up with each other on each occasion.
Here’s where things went sour. I went to go see a friend I’ve had for close to 7 years. I considered her my other best friend, as I am to her. Problem is that the heart grows fonder with distance (and time). As it were, I started having feelings for her and I told her on this night I will probably never forget. Not only did she not reciprocate the feeling (which I knew was already just a hopeful wish on my end), but a few days later, she decided to question me and the final consequence was not in my favour AT ALL. She pretty much said she needed “space”.
For a logical thinker, like me, that statement also reaks of “Stay a way for a long time”. So, unfortunately I think I’ve lost a best friend forever. This really sucks. But I’m trying to not let it get me down too long. It’s happened before so I know I can pull away from it. I just need to think of many other things.
Last night was a pretty good time. I had a couple drinks, which was nice. Jen, Jeremy, Kris (wee bro) and I ended up playing cards. I was pretty darn close to winning for playing for the first time. Jen taught us how to play Gin. Decent game, lost by like 20 points. So pretty decent!
This weekend I am travelling with Jeremy to visit his mom. I’ve never met the lady and am kind of excited to, just because I will get to meet the person who tried to raise my best friend. That and it should be a pretty good time to be had all around.
Hopefully Tuesday will bring a good beach day for a few of us. After that, I go back to Toronto to go back to school!
A question for you. Is ignorance really bliss? If I hadn’t said anything to my friend, would I be happier? Would things better if I ignored how I felt, or was telling her the best way to go?