With my sister

A few nights ago was really the first night I have spent with my sister in a very long while, I guess I suppose that tonight is kinda awkward on my part because I really don’t know how to act at something like this. Well I don’t mean I acted inappropriately I just think that it is hard for me to converse with my siblings especially when I know that they are disappointed with me for making bad decisions during a point of my life when I was looking for myself.

So I am just trying to figure this out while watching the unrated version of ‘My Bosses Daughter’, It actually seems to be kinda boring definitely not one of Ashton Kutcher’s best as I have seen. Now I have been told that my reviews are pointless because i technically don’t give my reasons of why i really like or dislike the movie, but in my own defense I really consider my reviews kinda of just short blurbs of what i watched then maybe a sentence or two on my personal thought of it and that’s all i insist on doing, if you have a problem with that then don’t fricken read my blog you idiots.

So back to spending the night over at my sister house is a little weird. I do have my best friend with me so it isn’t as bad as it could seem. I am hoping that it will get better tommorrow and well if it doesn’t I guess I am just going to have to figure out a way to impress my sister or whatever. I am just allowing this movie to finish then I am going to watch the notebook, for two reasons… firstly it is my fav romance, secondly it is like the best movie I ever watched.

My last statement may be completely untrue but it is quite late and i am not in the mood to disagree with myself.

My POV of the BBQ

The BBQ was a fun experience. My hope for the whole thing was to get my mind out of the gutter. Well, mission accomplished! Also, I got to meet J-matt’s mother. It was nice, he’s got a pretty great mom. I’m happy I’ve met her.

Then there was Karoke. I often hate singing in public, but for the first time in a VERY long time, I lost all cares of how people think about me. We sang a few songs:

1. Jesus Brother Bob by Arrogant Worms
2. When I’m Up by Great Big Sea
3. Calling You by Blue October
4. If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback

All of them off my iPod. I actually had a good time.

During dinner Brad (Jeremy’s cousin) and I had a great conversation. We talked about 2012. I think people make this day, December 20th 2012 a bigger case than if it were December

Mom’s BBQ

Jesus’ brother Bob, Jesus’ brother Bob
A nobody relative of the son of God
If only I’d been born just a little sooner
I’d be more than the brother of God Junior

The chorus above is from the Arrogant Worms song “Jesus Brother bob”. This was the opener for my mothers BBQ. Keith and myself stood uin p front of the masses and shouted and sang with all our unquestionable talent. It was a hoot of a time. I beleive in total keith and I perfromed roughly 4 songs and i performed another 2 with out him.

Burgers, and Hotdogs were the main features of the BBQ aswell the salads, the rosted chicken, and the suculent corn made this mean a perfect near end summer treat. With standup keroke, and social interaction encouraged.

Ok so it was a really great BBQ… It had it awakard moments in it too, like the first time i seen my Grandpa and Grandma C In well i am going to guesstimate 2 or 3 years. Yes I know I am a bad grandson so please spare me on the lectures. As well Keith finally met my mother, Aunt sue cried because of my mothers condition and I just took a step into out of my body to focus on the whole picture before I tried to properly interact with others. It was a mix between my mothers and her boyfriends family’s. So as you can tell their was very few people my age to interact with… That is why I brought my friend and a couple vex’s to drink.

Keith and I are going to stay at my sister for a day so I will rewrite back with that…

Is Ignorance Bliss?

So I’ve had a roller coaster of a week, since my arrival back home from Fort McMurray, Alberta.  There have been more ups than downs.

For one, I have been able to spend time with my best buddy Jeremy, something I haven’t really had a chance at doing well before my birthday back in January. He went to Saskachewan just before I came home to visit from Ryerson. there are few things I missed about Belle River and moving away but he was definately one of them.

I also got to spend some time with another friend Jen! She works at A&W when she has to, but I’m excited for her because she’s in university to become a nurse! She’s a lucky one, she’ll start in the medical field before I even enter Med school. I’ve seen her a few times this year previous and we’ve caught up with each other on each occasion.

Here’s where things went sour. I went to go see a friend I’ve had for close to 7 years. I considered her my other best friend, as I am to her. Problem is that the heart grows fonder with distance (and time). As it were, I started having feelings for her and I told her on this night I will probably never forget. Not only did she not reciprocate the feeling (which I knew was already just a hopeful wish on my end), but a few days later, she decided to question me and the final consequence was not in my favour AT ALL. She pretty much said she needed “space”.

For a logical thinker, like me, that statement also reaks of “Stay a way for a long time”. So, unfortunately I think I’ve lost a best friend forever. This really sucks. But I’m trying to not let it get me down too long. It’s happened before so I know I can pull away from it. I just need to think of many other things.

Last night was a pretty good time. I had a couple drinks, which was nice. Jen, Jeremy, Kris (wee bro) and I ended up playing cards. I was pretty darn close to winning for playing for the first time. Jen taught us how to play Gin. Decent game, lost by like 20 points. So pretty decent!

This weekend I am travelling with Jeremy to visit his mom. I’ve never met the lady and am kind of excited to, just because I will get to meet the person who tried to raise my best friend. That and it should be a pretty good time to be had all around.

Hopefully Tuesday will bring a good beach day for a few of us. After that, I go back to Toronto to go back to school!

A question for you. Is ignorance really bliss? If I hadn’t said anything to my friend, would I be happier? Would things better if I ignored how I felt, or was telling her the best way to go?